Tuesday 29 May 2012

Day 41 100 Freedom Breaths





Sprung Loose

Joy, sprung loose from her cage now she frolics around
She’ll discover a feather and tickle the ground
She tastes luxurious honey that drips from her tongue
She encourages, jibes and entices everyone
To drink of the goodness within each tantalising drop
She will whirl and spill-out for the whole world to feel
Of the glories of childlike behaviour surreal
She dances because of the smell of a flower
She prances a top of the tall green tree tower
Within water she splashes and dashes around
Little whirlpools of splendour and ripples abound
She will lightly caress the yellow gold sun
As she magnetises each being to come have more fun
She will roll in the mud with glee on her face
Releasing and popping up fairies all over the place
She will splash as the rain pours down from the sky
Delighting in each drop of as the wind whips by
She will roll on the mountains and sing to the moon
She draws creatures within echo of her fun sonic boom
She rides rainbows and storm clouds as though one’n the same
Earthquakes and tidal waves cheer as they join in the game
The taste of red cherry will colour her lips
All music happy or sad songs will flow from her hips
She’s completely aware that the truth will never hide
Story will shatter to reveal diamonds within to guide
She will cause sorrow to giggle and play a new tune
Grief, resentment and jealousy will leave the room
For Joy’s heartfelt existence is to discover within
Each moment past, present, future true love win.

(c) 2012 Karyn Janelle Davis

Day 40 100 Freedom Breaths



As I continue the inner exploration there is a lot of learning taking place.  It seems the deeper I go the simpler things are.  Funny that being that the move through complexity reveals simplicity.  Below is a poem that I wrote the other day...


“Dark Shadows Pure Gems”


Was now many years gone by, upon the kitchen floor curled I would cry
Children asleep, stories been read, my hand wiped gently forehead
The cold floor, earth need, for from my house I could not speed
Stuck in a hole of misery, I limped through life deliriously
They could have been days where only children song delight
But know – I had created my own plight
The gift was given of dark void within to spin
For at the time I never knew the beauty of sorrow found within
It seemed an endless pit of blackness, broken dishes, money matters
I couldn’t have know the riches I would find until heart ache shatters
Within the pieces, all strewn around were delicate wealth
I tried, I cried, I stood, I fell, I held my focus to grow children health
The songs we sung open in joy during the day
Where weeping and misery when in bed I lay
Then all at once, I realise - it’s open heart wonder and faith blues skies
When breathing within I could feel alive, and know the soul never dies
Then within small things I began to find gratitude love and heart of mankind
My daily steps more purposeful then, it’s moment delight instead of a grind
Those days now I love, within my soul knows,
Without deep dark shadows, I never could grow,
I needed to feel to know this depth true for this is the potential of me and you
To create something from the broken of heart is to echo a light into the dark
This song is a joyful and beautiful one for I discovered the essence and spark
So now when its dark and cold anywhere – I know that its diamonds, gold, gems, earth rare
These gifts are a mystery how they are found, yet life is a miracle discover in prayer.
Faith and trust remarkable songs as the message of love expresses, pure heart gongs


(c) 2012 Karyn Janelle Davis

Saturday 28 April 2012

Day 39 100 Freedom Breaths


"Celestial intervention"

As I awaken to the light of intention
A subtle shift that magnifies my attention
The release of free flow expression
Pours in streams from my soul
A readiness to be a vessel that overflows
Saturating myself in Surrender
Discovering the exquisite yet delicate touch of connection
Electrifies within me an awareness beyond myself

The deep dark shadows and valleys I have walked through
Have strengthen me beyond what I could have imagined
The whisperings of horror....that echoed have transformed into a quite breeze that teaches me
The meanderings and wanderings within the unknown have revealed patience and curiosity
The dragons and demons that once threatened me - I have now met and made peace with.
The separation I deluded myself about I can now see through the illusion

Now the time and space is right
Exposure is now my freedom
I will No longer hiding under clothes of pretence
It is imminent
I accept the awaiting presence
Truth will speak through these hands

I must before others declare this. 

Thank you ♥♥♥

Tuesday 10 April 2012

Day 38 100 Freedom Breaths




Papakan'je


The Naming of Papakan'je has occurred - A calling of the homeland by the sea to the mountains across the world.

In'tha Next Season...
13 Moons Beyond...

Sun...

"... Dreamed This Dream... Papakan'je Must Honour..."

Three Days...
13 Moons Beyond...
When'tha Monarch's Rise...

"... There Will Be... 3 Days... Sunshine..."

Only 3...
In This 13th Moon...

You Must Find'tha...
"... Place Of'yer Comfort.."

And, Wait... Unclothed... Within'yer Peace...

Each Of These Days...

One Papakan'je Will Lie Upon'yer Prone Skin...

One Will Lie...
On'tha Thin Muscle...
At'yer Left Side Knee...

"... You Will... See This... And, Know..."

The Next Two...

Perhaps On Head...
Perhaps On Shoulder...
Perhaps On Ankle...

You Must Tell Agawatessengawi'is... Then... Where...

And, This Will Be... Your Path...

....

Next Year...
You Must, As You Will, Shelter Your Garden...

But, You Must Also Plant An 'Unprotected Garden'...

For These Papakan'wi'is...
To Bring...
To You...
This Blessenin'...

You Await...

This Is All I Need'be Sayin'...

Agawatessengawi'is
Ogichidaa



Monday 9 April 2012

Day 37 100 Freedom Breaths



Moments pass if they are not experienced.

A vast many moments have past since my last blog.    Yet growth has continued.  I have faced many internal dragons, and can smile and say that each breath and each moment has been worth it.

I have learnt that these 100 are more powerful because of the intent to do them than even the idea or experience itself.

The layer upon layer of meaning that I apply in life remains until I realise its simply a meaning I have made.  Not the first time I have remembered this nor the last I can imagine.

As I have been peeling layer upon layer of stories away from my life.  I have been incredibly shocked by how simple and easy life has become.  In a flow of living the joy of living is showing up in my life.

I had a story so deeply told that I believed it even myself!   Its changed!  I giggle a wee bit realising it no longer served me.  And instantly it feel away.

I return to my 100 Breaths again to continue this 100 day blog.

Thursday 8 March 2012

Day 36 100 Freedom Breaths



A Moment Erupts

Yes - a weak moment, a day without completing my 100 Freedom Breaths.  A moment where I was caught up in delivering in life and didn't take time out!

All is well.  What an experience.  What a joy to sit here and know that while I was completely enraptured by an event and experiences, that my awareness was high and my joy overflowed even while things were difficult.

Yay for development.
Yay for knowing how to be present
Yay for the power of breathing.
Yay for life blood powering through
Yay for experience and joy
Yay for what is

Joy Your Ride

Day 35 100 Freedom Breaths



Rejuvenating Self

I was exhausted after a big day.  Nothing left inside of me but the physical shell of my body.  Well that's how it felt.

So I ran myself a bath, soaked into the luxury of the water and joyed in the feeling of softness upon my body.  Then I started my 100.  Simply enjoying the flow, in and out, nothing to do but breath and count.  Nothing to do but enjoy and be!

Yeeha the simply joyful pleasures of rejuvenating.

IT MORE THAN WORKED TOO.


Joy Your Ride

Day 34 100 Freedom Breaths


The Delicate Balance


The subtle delicate balance of life is a forever changing thing, as day becomes night and day again, the weather changes sometimes sunny other times blowing a gale, the seasons changing, the moon cycles, tides, body changes from birth through to dead, the changes of relationships, friends, jobs, cities, families, clothes.   There is one constant, and that is change.

Nothing new - yet everything anew.   My life balances have been shifting considerably as I am throwing myself into all kinds of varieties of experiences, many that I would not have normally taken as a challenge, and as my children grow up my time is becoming available in new ways.

The constant thing though through all of this is the moment by moment by moment for ever moment of now.   Everything else is a story, an illusion, a memory a fantasy.

The delicate balance of life between the moments of being present and the moments where I disappear into the mind and discover much later that I didn't even notice the road I took home or that the washing is all folded, or a conversation was not truly experienced.

All LEARNING!   I do get so much more from my life as I stay present with everything, and I'm remembering more to keep the breath as my anchor, it raises my awareness to now.  Yet I do let myself wander when I'm writing or creating, because thats also where the new comes from.

Joy Your Ride


Monday 5 March 2012

Day 33 100 Freedom Breaths



That Lovely Place

Everyone has that lovely place they love to escape to whether its a physical or a mental impression - they always feel free, revived and at peace.

I have a couple of physcial places I love to be, of course the beach rates highly (Raglan Beach), the Waikato River, or a lovely bath.  All including water, but I must admit when I can't "get away" I go in my mind to the top of a range of mountains where the wind is blowing my hair, I can smell the freshness and the vista enchants me.

These 100 Freedom Breaths continue to take me on my own inner journey increasing levels of relaxation, allowing and transformation to occur.

Now - when I simply think, "ok....going into the 100", I begin to feel what may be emerging within me, it could be a quiet settled present set, or a rigorous physical set, but each brings me to a deeper sense of delight and awareness of how I am functioning on this planet.  The barriers I have put up, or the illusions I have been living, or simply how un-present I had been!    Lost in thought, mind or activity and forgetting the beautiful pleasures of the moment by moment life we lead.

Clarity of Intent is a fascinating experience, its like I focus and everything becomes clear and then I go into life and I become a little foggy, a little unaware, more reactive rather than pro-active.  Yet I'm picking up on it faster than ever before and it only takes 3 - 10 purposeful breaths and I feel centered again and ready to experience life as a joy.

I'm grateful so deeply grateful to be experience the discipline of these 100 Days and I'm finding that some of the experiences that I have during the 100 sets I'm taking into my life.  Like the YES!   I'm using YES as a mantra at the moment the last number of days, I'm simply say YES, YES YES, over and over and it fills my heart with joy, and my body lightens, and it feels fabulous.

Into my day.

Joy Your Ride

Sunday 4 March 2012

Day 32 100 Freedom Breaths



The Storms of Life

The beauty of the storms of life is that they hold a moment where change can occur.  As the storm rolls in I now openly surrender to "what is presenting" rather than fighting the process.  They will come, they will go.  Life will blow and roar and rain down in its cycles where I can choose to enjoy.

More and more the enjoyment of a storm in my life, is allowing me to see that it comes and goes so quickly there is no need to get "all caught up" in it.  It's far more fun to experience the storm in a curious way, I discover that I'm far more open to seeing that there are somethings in life that aren't working and to let them go instead of justifying, blaming, holding on and stressing!

After every beautiful storm in life there is also that lovely moment when the sun comes out again!  There is freshness in the air, and the absolute delight of living takes over again.

Precious moments occur when I am curious and look for them.  The deepest storms in my life have ended up being the delicious learning moments.

A quiet 100 Freedom Breaths or a storm 100 freedom breaths, all allow me to simply become more conscious of myself and my playing out in the world.

Clarity of Intent is like sunshine.  

Joy Your Ride


Day 31 100 Freedom Breaths



Stop and Smell the Lavender 

Sometimes the freedom of life comes in the moments that are the simplest.   I know for myself its too easy to get caught up in the "events" of life and miss the simplicity of the small moments.   That beautiful feeling of the sun on your back, the lovely taste of fresh fruit, the delicious moment of exchanging a smile, the precious sound of laughter, the extra-ordinary delight of the smell of flowers.

Each of these delicate moments hold a presence that just is, that lovely experience of simply being.  That peaceful exquisite "I'm alive" feeling.    From this place it's much easier to create new ways of being, new experiences and new pathways.

The business of life otherwise gets in the way of new pathways.

Loving these 100 Freedom Breaths over the 100 Days.   The discipline is delightful, because it opens up a fresh way of living.

Joy Your Ride.

Wednesday 29 February 2012

Day 30 100 Freedom Breaths



Breathe

Its all in the breath, life, expression, speech, oxygenation, everything that "keeps us alive".  And therefore the very subjective internal process that I am experiencing with these 100 Days, this year, so continuing to bring me to greater awareness that breath itself also holds some magical keys to releasing and bringing in new ways of being.

Today, I did my 100 immediately after work, I could feel within me a desire to continue the shift from the Day 29, and so I fell full on into the 100, excited to discover what awaited me.

It became very quiet internally, my mind almost stopped, and I recall thinking - "gosh its quiet".  Each breath drew me deeper into my body, yet more aware of my external space.

The delicious driving force of the 100 caused my body to shudder and move naturally following what I will call the flow of the energy of this 100.

I'm not going to continue too deeply in what I experienced, but it has awakened within again me same the depths that I was experiencing last year when I did two sets of 100 Day is a row.

It so delicious to explore the possibilities of new expression.  Waves of sparks that spun my system slightly differently, an incredibly deep connectivity to the earth and an expansion toward the sky, yet within my beingness, possibly body an inner depth that just kept going, and all at the same time I noticed space within my body, and a continual awareness of body organs, and the connectedness that my/our body is.

So my exploration continues, holding in place clarity of intention, and now also adding passionate curiosity!

Not pretending here that life is perfect.  Oh no - but a deeper acceptance to what is than ever before.
An awareness of story
An awareness of how other people do effect
Higher levels of intuition - almost to the point of having to stop myself talking too soon!
Dare I say - reading of other peoples images has developed quicker - and a little less language required
My healing hands are doing magic through them more and more
Yet still learning to live life.
Deal with my own "stuff" and being fully responsible and accountable is still a learning process.

So on I breathe!

Joy Your Ride

Day 29 100 Freedom Breaths



Playful curiosity

I have moments where I wonder what its all about, what the purpose is, why the game of life rolls the dice it rolls, how I am influencing - or whether its actually all going to happen any way.  And other moments where I feel fully empowered, at one and in alignment and free and loving this expression we call life.

It great to have the differences, the comparisons and the experiences.

My 100 Freedom Breaths yesterday were uncomfortable during the process.  But goodness I slept well!
Another moment of creating clarity of intent.  Another day now to joyfully play and consciously be curious about life.  

I read somewhere yesterday that sits with me even now the Albert Einstein said.  "I'm not particularly specialized in anything, but I am passionately curious."

Passionately curious - what a wonderful way to live!

Joy your Ride

Tuesday 28 February 2012

Day 28 100 Freedom Breaths



YES

My 100 Freedom Breaths consisted of 100 yes's, if there is such a word.

Every in breath being present, every exhale - YES.

Honestly this is something that has no other words to explain it properly - if I tried it would be like trying to explain what chocolate cake tastes like.  Until you try it, its only an idea and theory.  The experience is where its all at, and only you will know if you like it or not.

Yes, I can tell you - its something I gently continued as I experienced my day today, because it felt so good!

I don't know about you, but I have heard a lot of No's in my life, and I say No far more often than I ever intend to.  No - I can't do that, or No I haven't done that or, No - I wouldn't do that.

I remember watching a movie - where the Hero could only say Yes!  It got him into a tonne of trouble, but it was a complete release too as he began to experience new things in life.

I also know that yes, is a very powerful state to be in, its good on the body, it releases wonderful chemicals into the body, it almost always puts a smile on ones face, and if Yes is causing me or someone else to own up to something its very powerful in its release.

Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes - couldn't be more simpler really!

So YES!  having fun with breathing and Yes.

Till tomorrow
Joy Your Ride

Monday 27 February 2012

Day 27 100 Freedom Breaths



The Pain or Pleasure of Growth

If I were a butterfly emerging from my chrysalis would it be comfortable?  I think not.   The stretch and breaking out of something that had held me while I transformed would also be a reason to not go any further.  But I'm also convinced - as there are so many butterfly's and babies born on this planet (the pain of child birth is another great example of this) that there is simply an inner knowing, a clarity of intent to break out from what was to what is....

These 100 Freedom  Breaths have truly challenged me in subtle yet powerful ways.  Questioning old belief's which I had not truly taken a look at before, and raising feelings that I have discovered distracting and challenging.   I had thought I had gotten over old stories from my past, and the truth is I had, but what surprised me immensely yesterday in my 100 was the new stories that I had replaced those old ones with.   I hadn't transformed the story into a magnificent way of living, no I had simply transitioned them, created a new story and a different perspective, but not an inclusive one, not a story that truly accepted what was and brought in a new way of being.  No I had almost rejected the old story!  Now there is something I'm giggling about, laughing at myself even as I write this, because the human condition, the mind, goes into survival mode, it works hard to adapt and shift so that it still has a place, so that it's importance is still mandatory!

The mind is a wonderful and powerful device and tool that we have, but its not me, its not you, we aren't our minds.  We have fabulous minds, however, perhaps like me, sometimes you have believed so strongly in what your mind is representing to you that you have forgotten (I certainly have) that is its simply a representation!  And I have lived that representation believing it to be true!  This is what I discovered deeply for myself in the 100 yesterday.   The mind established I no longer desired to have a story, so it quickly created another!  "Haha!  There you go", it said, "I'm working with you, you have let go of that old story!"
And then I discovered - it had just replaced a new one.  Fabulous stuff!

Oh well, the learning and pondering of another growth period.  I'm not certain we will ever truly be outside of story, but I do believe it would be wonderful to know that we are living through one instead of living through a story and not knowing that we are.

Have a fabulous day...and until tomorrow.

Joy Your Ride


Sunday 26 February 2012

Day 26 100 Freedom Breaths



Now

Yes every 100 Freedom Breaths helps me come back into this now moment.   Just this now.  I can create my future moving forward, or remember experiences from my past - any other time.

But when I'm in the 100 my only intent is to be clearly present and in this now moment.

Its a discipline, its a rigorous requirement by me to do it daily.

To every moment just become fully present, and then play with life.  Instead of drifting in and out of being asleep.

Its fun, its challenging and its me playing with life.  How many different ways can I do the 100?

Clarity of Intention, freedom of passion, joy of playful curiosity and lightening up!

What else?  What next?

Joy Your Ride

Day 25 100 Freedom Breaths


Laughter the Medicine for the Soul

The absolute joy of tummy jogging as you laugh.
Laughter is food for the soul
100 breaths, over these 100 days, is rattling things up inside of me and I'm having to face my inner stuck-ness and work through to clarity of intent, free my passion even more and joyfully play.  Its curiosity that is winning out for me right now!

If you feel like a giggle for nothing or some stimulation enjoy this laughing youtube clip.



Day 24 100 Freedom Breaths



Questions the Power of Life

I have more questions than anything today.

For what purpose do we not know who we really are?
For what reason is the mind so distinctly delusional?
What happens if we get through mind clutter - I mean really get through mind clutter?
Most games in life - at least there are rulz?  Which begs the question who set these ones?

I'm a thinkin deeply I know!

Joy your Ride




Thursday 23 February 2012

Day 23 100 Freedom Breaths




Practical or Mystical


Sometimes a touch of fantasy or mystical is all that is needed to revive the hope, joy and faith into a situation.   As I am exploring all of the different contexts of life, all the areas, and my responses to these area, I am noticing sometimes to simply change my perspective, all that is required is a deep breath and my full attention into the area, the energy that is held within that space will change and shift and adapt to a new contribution.  This new contribution of attention and presence is shifting and nurturing a new way of being into that area.  Releasing the old stuck energy of what I had coded an experience to be and releasing it to flow into a new experience.

The power of breath is magical, dynamic and transforms.   Every moment now is creating our future, so flowing energy allows the richness of an environment to be fertile.

I'm feeling deep discomfort today, following I don't know or anticipating I don't know.   I feel displaced and uncomfortable.   My energy feels split and shaky.   Perhaps there is a need today to enter the 100 Freedom Breaths with a clarity to align or re-align....or perhaps it is what it is and this will pass.

I certainly don't claim to know why I feel the way I do, the unknown perhaps, or the known perhaps.  Any which way, it is what it is and my breath and presence is the only thing that I have to keep me from running from myself.   Perhaps its the unearthing or unveiling of something for me to be aware of to own or to accept.

So in love and pure awareness of my body and energy discomfort I accept that change is occuring.

Joy your Ride - till tomorrow...Arohanui

Wednesday 22 February 2012

Day 22 100 Freedom Breaths


The Joy of Playful Curiosity


I'm discovering more and more that its my approach to life that makes the new areas of discovery fun and joyful.   When I say this, Its not just about attitude, its a curiosity like a child, exploratory to the extreme, willing to try on new ways of being, like playing dress-ups, willing to taste a new experience in a new way, willing to feel into the depth of something with the excitement of what could be explored instead of the very easy adult solution of "oh I already know".

The 100 Freedom Breaths, with the flow of curiosity is leading me to willingly dive into the old known aspects of self in a more fun way.  Delving into possibility and accepting whatever I find as only one perspective, opening up multiple perspectives and beginning to realise that there are even more than I can even conceive.

I'm willing to hold that reality is like a dream, everything within the reality dream has a purpose for being there.  Every emotion, expression, feeling, sensation, event, person, experience and view that I have is purposeful and holds messages and is still only one way of perceiving the current reality.

When I come across another person who is also willing to truly put down their beliefs and values for the exploration of possibility we begin to play just like these beautiful dolphins, in harmony with everything around and tuning into even more possibility.

The joy of playful curiosity is becoming a wonderful way to explore the small and the big of life's experiences.

I wonder what else can be experienced?

Joy Your Ride.

Tuesday 21 February 2012

Day 21 100 Freedom Breaths


A cute reminder that sometimes less said is the best.  I'm learning more and more that wisdom is when I say nothing, and in fact judge nothing and simply feel through any situation.  There is no doubt about the fact that we are sensory feeling beings, with magnificent minds and incredibly complex bodies.   All powered by some unseen force that permeates our entire being and is connected with everything and everyone.

How is it that we have believed so long that we are individual beings?  The beauty of the fact that for so long I have believed myself to be separate from everyone is the most glorious giggle.  It is true, on the face of it I am not you, you are not me, we have separate bodies, minds, lives, experiences, beliefs, values etc.

Yet on a deeper look, a deep exploration, with curious eyes that are willing to see differently than they have been trained to see, an entirely new world awaits.   This incredible illusion of separation has its perfect place, its a grand way to experience.  Its a blessed way to investigate how we create in isolated environments.  Its a truly glorious place to experience, especially with the inner knowledge and knowing that this apparently insular environment is still a part of the whole universe and its experience of itself.

I'm feel deeply blessed right now.  Grateful for the 100 Freedom Breath experience that is bringing me to face myself, my inner fears, my insular awareness's and the joy of this experience in the greater view of everything!

Joy Your Ride


Monday 20 February 2012

Day 20 100 Freedom Breaths


The Power of Metaphor


Isn't it fascinating how life stories permeate through our lives.   Often its great to be reminded, and this is me reminding me too, that a metaphor isn't real, its simply a story we tell ourselves.  However that powerful story also influences us.  It leads and guides the mind to discover ways of relating within our lives to the internal story within our mind.

These stories may change and alter during our life course.  They can be powerful and useful, or derogatory and un-useful.

For the longest time one of my life metaphors has been about horses.  Having grown up with horses from a baby it makes sense that these metaphors are deeply embedded.     I also known where I am in a life situation within myself according to how I am riding my internal horse, saddle, reigns and clothes, or bareback, and without reigns.  I also know how I'm feeling about the path I'm on as to whether my internal story is hilly, through forest, water, along the beach or a road.   This will often reflect my experience of current situations in life.

If my horse is bucking and rolling its eyes and I'm struggling to stay on, I remember from my experience with horses to trust them and to give them head and to stop fighting the process instead to become one with the animal (life experience) and in a very short time, I discover I have accepted the circumstances in my life and I'm easily dealing with them again.

The 100 Breaths continue to be a way of surrendering to the flow and enjoying the ride of life, allowing me to have the best of life on a more continuous basis instead of being annoyed or fighting my own path that I have created.

The flow, clarity and conscious attention to the present moment is allowing me more and more to let go of the past, to embrace the now and to more consciously create the future.

However more and more I'm less controlling about how my future "should be", I'm trusting my inner creative juices to formulate new ways of being and new experiences.  This is dramatically different than how I had in the past been creating my life.   It is removing disappointment too, because now, I'm accepting more that the inner feelings I'm having are driving creations and my reality moving forward, so observing the feelings are a far more powerful way to observe future creations than attempting to know what is coded within the images that are being made!   Visualization is powerful, and is continuously occuring every moment of our day so the inner awareness of the emotions that are playing through the body are like a GPS system that indicates what is actually being visualized!

Fun stuff, all observations at this point, and still learning!

Joy your Ride!


Sunday 19 February 2012

Day 19 100 Freedom Breaths


Stretching

There is something simply fabulous about watching a cat stretch.   As I watched my two cats relaxing, playing, sleeping and stretching yesterday I noticed how they reserved energy in such a beautiful way.

As I was headed for bed last night I did my 100 Freedom Breaths, having observed the way a cat stretched, I too began to breath into my body and stretch.   Each and every limb, torso etc....(no need to carry on).  As I went deeper into the 100, the stretches became more profoundly releasing, I could feel the awakening of my body the oxygen going into all the spaces.  The breaths also extended out of my body too, an awareness of the space around me.

I find it fascinating the environments that we live within.  The obvious external environment which changes as we move through our day and the inner environment within the mind/body.   This is what I'm focusing on now.  Not content, beliefs, values etc etc.

The Environment!  Clarity of Intent and the effect of the environment both external and internal.    I'm also aware that we effect the environment around us....lots to be aware of.

Saturday 18 February 2012

Day 18 100 Freedom Breaths




The pure joy that I experienced last night as I was listening to raw talent, the voices of angels, the crystal clear sound of voices that touched every cell in your body as your listening!

I was so inspired and even brought to tears and then I added the 100, feeling the sounds within my body, enjoying the stretch and the relaxation as my body breathed.

What an incredible experience.  One that has so few words I'm not even going to continue blogging.  Its something that you can only experience for yourself in your own way.  What a joy a pure voice brings.


Day 17 100 Freedom Breaths


Bringing Awareness into the Present Moment

True to form the 100 Freedom breaths are continuously causing me to become more conscious of where my attention is placed, how I am attending to my life and other people.   I'm feeling more connected to my inner flow and the conscious awareness of where I am more and more often.  Not the "where I am" physically, although that is also becoming a more sensory experience, but the "where is my attention now", am I coming from my heart, my head, my fears, my inner essence, a place and space that is useful or a re-run of life.

These awakenings are allowing me to be more present and bring presence into the worries, concerns, fears and dramas of life.  My presence when it shines upon these situations, thoughts and feelings seems to change them dramatically.   In truth its probably only a little bit, but my transformation of these habitual patterns are dramatically altering the course of my attention, the freedom of my attention and therefore a higher awareness of whether I am clear with my intent.

This Clarity of Intent is allowing me to follow down new ways of being, exploring gently and subtly aspects of myself that have often been over looked, forced to remain quiet, or pushed down.

I knew in myself that the inner dragons, demons and shadows within my life would become highlighted through this 100, because the focus is about Clarity of Intent, and of course that immediately draws attention to anything that is taking me away from a clear and intentional path.

As I sit here now, I realise that over the last couple of weeks, I have had moments where I have had to face myself, old patterns that have played out and decide where to from there.  Presence, my presence brought into those moments has been the absolute best solution.  If I have gone into thinking and changing those or trying to outsmart or out think the patterns I have failed and have had to look at them again.  But the moment pure aware presence guided through the breath comes in, and an observing no judging, acceptance reigns, then the light of awareness has changed my path.   And more often than not, I have simply let it be, let that aspect of me have some air, in a quiet safe place within me fully bringing my intention, attention and energy into the one place.

Chemically I know this changes the density of the old energy.  For I can feel it.

Wow, it excites me even recalling through words these moments, because I can feel the lightness of my body as a result of showing up and being present.

I'm grateful and thankful for the 100, on the very basis that I continue to consciously breath more and more and more during the day.  I know breath is breath is air is air, but its doing something wonderful and causing life to become easier.

If you are participating In the 100, may you too experience your own joy of this very easy, simple and basic wonder.

Joy Your Ride.

Thursday 16 February 2012

Day 16 100 Freedom Breaths


Our bodies speak with Wisdom


I had a very interrupted 100.  Interrupted by body needs, a glass of water! Nature calling!   Awareness of my left knee being sore!   For a little while I judged myself not fully staying with the full flowing 100.  Then I stopped when I realised - that's perfect, that's exactly what I had not been listening to, My Body!

As I then relaxed into the rhythms of my body, into the awareness of tightness, of relaxation, of the needs that it has I began to listen with a deeper ear, with a quiet sense of hearing.    This brought a brightness into my space and a gratefulness for all of the functions of my body, and I began to deeply appreciate how day in day out, moment by moment, every cell within my body works within its role with other cells, all communicating, sharing information, knowledge and wisdom, working toward the necessary needs that my body has.

It may be more water to lubricate the system, a big breath to oxygenate, or a yawn, a stretch, nutrition, food or rest.  This incredibly intelligent bio-chemical being with all its intricate workings continually houses the experiences I have.  All the electromagnetic impulses, the unseen and intelligent space in between all of this.

I'm in awe of my body, our bodies, our magnificent sacred blessed bodies!

The wisdom within.

Joy your Ride

Wednesday 15 February 2012

Day 15 100 Freedom Breaths



Every day is a day to experience.   It all starts when we emerge from the depth of sleep, any dream that we leave is left in that place and we move into a more awakened place, sometimes the memory of the dream if the imprint is strong remains with us for a little while, often though the dream is left in the dream world and we can't even remember them!

Then as we go through our day we go in and out of various levels of awareness, in and out of our thoughts, sometimes completely immersed in our inner world where our attention is caught up in a situation, event or emotional experience.  Other times brought into the present moment because of another situation.

This multi-dimensional way that we live is fascinating.  The 100 Freedom Breaths have allowed me to become more and more aware on an ongoing basis of these shifts in attention, these movements from one trance-like state to another, these levels of awareness.

I am in awe with the power of our human development.  The levels of clarity from one trance state to another can become cloudy and distorted - even completely forgotten.   In one realm of thought I can be caught up in my identity as a mother or business woman or lover and have a complete disconnect from my authentic self in that moment.  Each identity shift seems to highlight a different facet of self, a different set of beliefs, past experiences and expectations.  In many cases each Identity has simply held its ground, building on its own belief of itself, sometimes using a starting pack from lessons when I was a child.

For example.  Relationships, I began with the Starter Pack the old already installed programmes from my parents relationship.   I entered into adult life and built upon that Identity around relationship without even thinking to question some of the programmes, the rules, the over-rides, the expectations, the "defaults" of this experience called relationship.   I think its so much fun now - looking at it.  Yet I completely acknowledge at the time of experiencing relationships that didn't work I simply believed it ALL to be true!

Lets investigate the difference when I'm aware of my own programmes, the effect of the Identity (ego) the make up of it, the structure and the role that its playing.  Now my authentic self, the true essence has a inner flow, an awareness to realise every thought, energy and action taken through that Identity is creating my future.  Now I am able to realise that I am none of these.  They are simply a set of programmes, rules, parts, values, beliefs and capabilities.  Not who I am.  Not who you are.

We are exquisite multi-dimensional beings and as we awaken to this, we can more consciously co-create together to explore new paths, new ways of being, new expressions of the God blessed potentiality that exists within us, the raw potential of creation.  The orgasmic excitement of bringing something new into our world.


Tuesday 14 February 2012

Day 14 100 Freedom Breaths



Its a pure joy when I recall the interest of last nights 100.  I again decided to use another breathing technique that places full focus upon belly breathing, but this time in and out of the mouth.  Now even though my mind was a little hesitant I proceeded anyway.   They are fast breaths in for two and out for 1, so the 100 happened very fast.   Some parts of my mouth became dry, but as I was also participating fully the saliva formed quickly as though I was talking about something delicious.

Have you ever noticed how when you are in an argument your mouth goes dry?  This is especially true when its something you don't like talking about.   In contrast when you are loving a conversation your mouth will fill with saliva.   Look at little babies, when they are exploring the world through taste, they dribble a lot.  They are excited about their own explorations!

My body tingled nearer the end and as I chose to do the very energetic 100 before I went to bed I wondered whether sleep would come easily.  To my pure delight as I lay processing the experience and taking myself off to sleep my body responded very quickly.

So that's the what happened.

My musings of the journey of Clarity of Intent has evolved to begin to notice more fully where my attention is being placed.  I'm becoming clearly more aware of my thoughts.   If they are off into something that has already happened often my body becomes tense and it becomes boring!    When I purposely become attentive to the present moment and to newness and creation and becoming and evolving there is a deep sense of excitement.  Its like all my cells in my body are smiling like a field of sunflowers.   So I instantaneously know that that state for the body is a healthy state.  Alert, interested and happy.

Talking about happy.  There was years and years in my life where I simply wanted to be happy.  I gave up that in about 1998.  Since then I have realised that happiness occurs in the moment.  It is something that naturally occurs when the mind and body aligns.  I have had so many clients that I have worked with who have been in the search for happiness.   It's an interesting search, because as long as they are looking outside of themselves, they will never truly find it.

Our human nature is to search, to explore, to create, to evolve.  Our human condition is to believe our own stories and illusions that the mind has developed.   Human nature seeks moments of ecstatic, exquisite urgency, where as the human condition wants to be happy.

I know which one I'm choosing more and more.

Joy your Ride! 

Monday 13 February 2012

Day 13 100 Freedom Breaths



Whatever life brings, there are moments where our true authentic self quietly with exquisite subtle power says.  "This way".   I know for myself I may have tried to do my own thing and still its like I keep going on a round about coming to the same choices.  And eventually I go down the path that seems the least well trodden the least lite, but the one to take anyway.

The exquisite joy of going into the unknown a new way of being down a path that is new, is the joy of living on the edge of creation.  In a realm that is awaiting exploration and a new becoming of self.

In the inner reflections of our being, in the interconnectedness of oneness there awaits co-creation.  Something I have studied for over 15 years, and I still stand in awe of how we co-create together.  What is it that draws one to another, circumstances to oneself and opportunity to become at every moment of every day?   How is it that sometimes my robotic self continues to build barriers and concerns, worries and drama's when they are all an illusion and I for moments in time believe them to be true?   For what purpose does this illusion feel like a reality so real that its fixed?  For what purpose do I allow disillusion to take hold?

When we are gifted with such magnificent opportunity for exploration and pure potent creation - how come the hum drum of habituated patterns take precedence instead of the magestic becoming of life?

Perhaps this is the awakening state.  The trances of life that I have lived have varied immensely dependent on how much responsibility I am willing to take for all of life's realities.  The deeper and more somber the life drama - the deeper the trance I was in.  The awakening from those places have been an extremely interesting path to walk.   Like the awakening from a deep sleep where I had been dreaming and believing my dream to be real, and as I came through the veils of sleep into the more conscious awareness, there was a disoriented experience.  One of not knowing which one was real.  Of not knowing whether one could really only have been a dream, and the discovery that morning wakefulness is a place of potential has made me aware that the trance, asleep dream states have left some energetic memory that I am at choice of to either re-create and focus upon - or completely let go of and enter with excitement into the moment of creating our future.

Much to ponder on - and although I'm still learning and beginning to express, I am excited by this metaphor. For is being awake simply awakening from the attachments of illusions and "dreams" of what we thought were real?

Perhaps!

Joy Your Ride


Saturday 11 February 2012

Day 12 100 Freedom Breaths





Its not autumn here in New Zealand yet, but it was very much for me in the 100 today.


I allowed myself to become unconscious too much this weekend.  I ate and drank food that I know does not feed my "best awareness" levels.  And that's ok, I choose to do that.


And during my 100 just now, I was very much just becoming more aware of my body, taking in the moments of my energy areas that were a little blocked a little sluggish and little murky.  And so as each breath entered,  it drew me to where I needed to shine a little light, draw and oxygenate and replenish and love.


Simple, easy and kind.   Gently paying full attention as each breath exhaled, noticing the shifts and changes, really just being, preparing myself to be able to more clearly participate at a conscious level again.  Bringing out the awake playful side, designing the necessary patterns to remain awake.


My version of life, is that we are all here to evolve and its takes everyone to participate and be present and be involved in life and the greater aspects of life as a oneness - not as a singular soul having its traumas and dramas. I know that people are all in the place they are in. I know that we all have our own life experiences to consider and I also know when someone is vastly aware of their spiritual nature, that it is then their duty to be a part of life on this planet, to be very much a grounded spirit being working diligently to perform our part that we are playing in moving toward enlightened beings who walk here on this planet in joy and peace and harmony with what is, ever present allowing newness to occur.


My path in life is very sure, I am joyed by people and who they are in their ease or dis-ease, I'm also open to most ways of being, still working to accept the spirit beings who are thinking they are separate from others - the ones who are seeking another being to fulfil themselves, when deep inside we already are whole, we already are complete. We already are divine beings playing in a field of matter and experiencing the joys and sorrows of our perception that that is all there is.


Sometimes we experience great pain or suffering or loss in our lives and this is the Opportunity for us to truly deeply and significantly release ourselves from our own life drama's, yes there are lessons inside of these experiences, and most of all there are moments to realise its the story we have been telling ourselves that actually provides the opportunity for the imprint to occur.   


I like ease in life, I have no interest in attachments and energy interactions that continue to feed our individualised experience. 


So with the awakened playful side of becoming I fully accept my life as it is and as I have created it.


I completely acknowledge that the 100 allows the becoming of us over and over, and I also recognise the power of the 100 Freedom Breaths to simply allow me to awaken again to the full beauty of life.


Joy Your Ride


Day 11 100 Freedom Breaths



So often in my life I get to this point.  This internal reflective point where something (doesn't really matter what the trigger) has occurred and I decide to take an internal journey into what has attracted an experience into my life.

Good, bad or otherwise, I am a deep believer in the fact that every occurrence is a reflection of things I have somehow drawn in, rejected or called upon in some way.   For no matter what happens I always sit in a choice moment.  A place where I can either react or respond, or go into cause and change the situation.

I haven't always been so aware of this, sometimes it used to be every number of months I would kinda wake up in a situation and realise that I was responsible.  Now almost daily I get to those points.   And I celebrate the beauty of it, and I can also say sometimes I feel a little inner annoyance - because it would be "lovely to pretend I'm not responsible".  Oh however to face everything with my eyes wide open, my heart open and to listen to the quiet still voice of my authentic self takes conscious choice.  It demands of me to still my random thoughts, to stop the internal chatter of story and to let go of the strings of pretend control.   It requests of me to  go quietly within myself and ask a useful question to direct my mind.

"How would my authentic self become within this situation?"

Silence reigns instead of an answer.   My brain and mind had developed patterns that were rutted deep in reasons, justifications, illusions and fantasy, blaming others, refusal and denial.   For old questions used to run like "Why....why is this happening?"  Well there is a library of answers for that a museum of technological art and theoretical answers to "WHY?"    But I don't want those answers, they keep me running through a muddy valley, and sinking into the ruts of the problem instead of sitting on the mountain for authentic contemplation, quiet in the awareness of the much larger picture, the quantum exquisite becoming that we are all participating within.

So the far more useful authentic truth was just a guiding feeling, an awareness I Must BE Responsibile, face everything and lead with Clarity of Intent.

So I still sit quietly upon this mountain, and as I do in full presence the breeze of intelligent life moves my hair and touches my sink.  The vistas of pure universal beauty can be explored, the touch of the current now reality is here.

It is me that will bring the rattle and hum of the busy mind, or the screech and rumble of the vehicles of old thought that whisk around a city of illusional mind.

I sit in choice - either the beautiful mountain or the busy city.   I sit in choice.   I know which one my authentic self has already chosen...


Joy your Ride

Friday 10 February 2012

Day 10 100 Freedom Breaths




This 100 Freedom Breath process is the greatest reminder to keep consciously aware of what is normalised or patterned within my life.

There are so many things that I Just simply don't even take my attention too.  The pounding of a base drum playing on a car stereo, the crickets cackling or crackling to each other, the sound of the key board as I tap, the feel of the seat under me, my feet upon the floor, where my breathing is located, and full my breaths are that I'm taking, the focus of my mind or the thought that is going through my head now.

It does feel so lovely to simply participate as the sound for a moment and then break away from the sound and discover the spaces between, same with the feeling, feeling body position and then go in full attention to the part in discussion and merge with it.  Or perhaps discover the light and light mindedness.

Life is such a beautiful exploration - the way I feel right now, the less rights and wrongs applied to anyone the freer we are to discover our unfolding potentiality.

Joy your Ride

Thursday 9 February 2012

Day 9 100 Freedom Breaths



A Relaxing 100

Sometimes I simply feel tired, low in energy and want to sleep.  Have you ever felt like that?

That was me last night....so when I was aware that I still had my 100 to complete - and a blog!!  (self decided of course) I lay upon my bed and started to breath, not from my nose, but expanding my ribs, this is a great way to entice immediate body connection.   As you expand your ribs, naturally and it will pull air into your body.  Kind of like a bottle that has been squeezed slightly and is then placed into water, it sucks the water into the bottle as the bottle expands.  This breathing technique is used to develop a greater lung capacity in developing speech and singing.

As I did this my body, even though tired began to energise.  I was in control this time and by the count of 25 I was keen to quicken the process so I could get to bed.  I stood up and did the same breathing technique but this time stretching my arms out either side of my body and bringing my arms up and down with the breath, much faster than normal.   I did this to the count of 75 staying as fully present as possible.  Feeling far more energised I returned to my bed and did the final 25 slowly and consciously.

I can honestly say that this 100 was a purposeful "doing it because I have decided to be disciplined".   The sense of accomplishment even though a little thing builds one day upon the other, of "doing what I say I'm going to do."  Its a beautiful slow build in trust of self and raises my own awareness to the fact that its the little things in life that we continually practise and attend to that makes the masterful process of conscious living a very real thing.

I could have given myself reasons to not do the 100 yesterday.  I could have justified it away.  But instead, standing by my commitment I feel a foundational balance of life threading through the layers of illusions that we have lived from an asleep state.

Conscious deliberate living, deliberate conscious awareness, which everyway its said, whichever approach it brings a moment of clarity, where I can build upon a knowledge of how Intent is so magically playing out in life all of the time.

Thank you beautiful fellow human
Thank you for our co-creations in life.
Thank you for being you!

Joy Your Ride! 

Wednesday 8 February 2012

Day 8 100 Freedom Breaths



8th of February 2012

It was a decision made with a beautiful friend of mine who is also doing the 100 Days of 100 Freedom Breaths.   She said she was going to do a crystal 100 and I was inspired to also discover the magic of the 100 with crystals.

As is the beautiful case with the 100 Breaths, they always happen as they are to occur and not always according to plan!   (Little bit like trying to herd cats!)   I do love how there is already an idea, yet the 100 will always take you where you need to go, not necessarily where you think you "want to go".

So, we agreed we would do the 100 at about the same time in the evening around 9pm, both of us working with crystal energies....well what actually occurred was...

9pm rolled around and the kids should be off to bed because its school the next day.  Right that's about normal isn't it?   Ok didn't happen!  My almost 11 year old daughter joked and mucked around with me stringing out her bedtime.  My 17 year old son had disappeared for a late night run about 8.45, and I had expected according to patterns that he would come in, shower check out the social media sites and then pop off to bed at 10pm.   

In the meantime I started to bring out my crystals and place them outside in the moonlight.  Even though the clouds were thick I did regularly see the moon shining brightly through gaps promising to be there when I was ready.

I made myself a drink and went outside to sit on the balcony with my bare feet dangling over the side alongside my crystals and tea.   Both cats and my dog gathered around me, then returning from his run my son found me outside and sat along with me chatting and teasing me about what I was doing, you know the crystals and the moon.  We laughed and talked, him sharing some of his world, me sharing some of mine, with little interludes of "Mum what have you been smoking, oh thats right you don't need to, your crazy already" I giggled along with him, watching the moon rays, but not seeing the moon, here is the thing, the two cats, dog "Puppy" and my son continued to stay with me.  What a delightful gift!   

But I wasn't going to start the 100 with him there.  For a felt a need to be alone with this 100.   This continued until 11pm.  Significant because his self imposed bed rules were not attended too!   He seemed to enjoy the process we both experienced as the sky began to clear and we talked about space, universe and other intangible things.  Of course all his discussions were based on science, and he teased me when it came to "Mum's fantasy" as he called it.  What a pure delight!

So, if you are still reading, then this next part is for you because its another level of connectivity that the 100 has called from within me.

My son eventually went inside to shower, so I started a partially participating 100.  I could feel the call to go deeper, but I held back knowing at any stage he would come out to say good night.    By about 30 I was feeling a deep pull from my feet into the ground and a pull from the moon herself.     I resisted my body moving too much and instead went into a trance like state while focused upon the moon.   Each breath gently encouraged my feet to feel deeper into the earth and as I pushed down I felt the surge of energy from the earth coming up, this beautiful feeling brought me more and more grounding, yet I was staring directly at the moon!

I finished that 100 and finally my son went to bed!  Ah....now its my turn to enjoy more fully.   I turned all the lights in the house off, and went back outside.   The clouds had all rolled on and the moon was in full visibility!  Perfect!   Immediately we returned to the place we had been before. 

Moving away from individuality and toward connectivity!

This next 100 was very subtle, very slow and very connected.  My feet planted deeply within the earth I could feel her rhythms, my body gently arched and my navel lead with this next 100.   I could feel the connection with the moon through my belly, as I more fully connected, I became glaringly aware to slow my rhythm down, to feel the subtleties of the movement.   I went in and out of heightened awareness of the night sounds to extreme awareness of the gentle pull and tug upon the earth from the moons pull.    LOUDLY and with absolute certainty I knew to explore gently, because I could feel so much of our mother nature, her interactions, the movement of the tides, the gentle throb of the inner core of the earth, The Womb of the Goddess.

I learnt at an even deeper level the subtle power of our connectivity.

With true love and admiration to everyone and everything on our planet earth, thank you for our very existence.  Thank you for the oneness that we already are, for that was the other experience I had.  For when the moon again became covered by a dark cloud, I could still feel her presence, and the in and out breath applied what I know as a fractionation (an up and down, in and out, aware and not aware, connected and sense of individualness).  By the way I know some of my words are almost made up, as I am attempting to discover words to articulate such a deep experience.   This fractionation left me feeling deeply aware that we are always connected to everything and everyone, its simply my level of awareness at any time that places an illusion of separation.

Well I guess that brings us to the end of my experience of the 100 for the 8th day.

So in one with you I breath
In one with the earth we breath
In one breath we already are connected.

Joy Your Ride!



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