NOW in Our Heart...means so much more to me moment by moment...thank you for who you are in every form and every breath you take, your ever expanding perspective is exactly what we need in this world. My love and deep acknowledgement of you...
Thank YOU from ♥ to ♥.
A vast many moments have past since my last blog. Yet growth has continued. I have faced many internal dragons, and can smile and say that each breath and each moment has been worth it.
I have learnt that these 100 are more powerful because of the intent to do them than even the idea or experience itself.
The layer upon layer of meaning that I apply in life remains until I realise its simply a meaning I have made. Not the first time I have remembered this nor the last I can imagine.
As I have been peeling layer upon layer of stories away from my life. I have been incredibly shocked by how simple and easy life has become. In a flow of living the joy of living is showing up in my life.
I had a story so deeply told that I believed it even myself! Its changed! I giggle a wee bit realising it no longer served me. And instantly it feel away.
I return to my 100 Breaths again to continue this 100 day blog.
Everyone has that lovely place they love to escape to whether its a physical or a mental impression - they always feel free, revived and at peace.
I have a couple of physcial places I love to be, of course the beach rates highly (Raglan Beach), the Waikato River, or a lovely bath. All including water, but I must admit when I can't "get away" I go in my mind to the top of a range of mountains where the wind is blowing my hair, I can smell the freshness and the vista enchants me.
These 100 Freedom Breaths continue to take me on my own inner journey increasing levels of relaxation, allowing and transformation to occur.
Now - when I simply think, "ok....going into the 100", I begin to feel what may be emerging within me, it could be a quiet settled present set, or a rigorous physical set, but each brings me to a deeper sense of delight and awareness of how I am functioning on this planet. The barriers I have put up, or the illusions I have been living, or simply how un-present I had been! Lost in thought, mind or activity and forgetting the beautiful pleasures of the moment by moment life we lead.
Clarity of Intent is a fascinating experience, its like I focus and everything becomes clear and then I go into life and I become a little foggy, a little unaware, more reactive rather than pro-active. Yet I'm picking up on it faster than ever before and it only takes 3 - 10 purposeful breaths and I feel centered again and ready to experience life as a joy.
I'm grateful so deeply grateful to be experience the discipline of these 100 Days and I'm finding that some of the experiences that I have during the 100 sets I'm taking into my life. Like the YES! I'm using YES as a mantra at the moment the last number of days, I'm simply say YES, YES YES, over and over and it fills my heart with joy, and my body lightens, and it feels fabulous.
Sometimes the freedom of life comes in the moments that are the simplest. I know for myself its too easy to get caught up in the "events" of life and miss the simplicity of the small moments. That beautiful feeling of the sun on your back, the lovely taste of fresh fruit, the delicious moment of exchanging a smile, the precious sound of laughter, the extra-ordinary delight of the smell of flowers.
Each of these delicate moments hold a presence that just is, that lovely experience of simply being. That peaceful exquisite "I'm alive" feeling. From this place it's much easier to create new ways of being, new experiences and new pathways.
The business of life otherwise gets in the way of new pathways.
Loving these 100 Freedom Breaths over the 100 Days. The discipline is delightful, because it opens up a fresh way of living.
Its all in the breath, life, expression, speech, oxygenation, everything that "keeps us alive". And therefore the very subjective internal process that I am experiencing with these 100 Days, this year, so continuing to bring me to greater awareness that breath itself also holds some magical keys to releasing and bringing in new ways of being.
Today, I did my 100 immediately after work, I could feel within me a desire to continue the shift from the Day 29, and so I fell full on into the 100, excited to discover what awaited me.
It became very quiet internally, my mind almost stopped, and I recall thinking - "gosh its quiet". Each breath drew me deeper into my body, yet more aware of my external space.
The delicious driving force of the 100 caused my body to shudder and move naturally following what I will call the flow of the energy of this 100.
I'm not going to continue too deeply in what I experienced, but it has awakened within again me same the depths that I was experiencing last year when I did two sets of 100 Day is a row.
It so delicious to explore the possibilities of new expression. Waves of sparks that spun my system slightly differently, an incredibly deep connectivity to the earth and an expansion toward the sky, yet within my beingness, possibly body an inner depth that just kept going, and all at the same time I noticed space within my body, and a continual awareness of body organs, and the connectedness that my/our body is.
So my exploration continues, holding in place clarity of intention, and now also adding passionate curiosity!
Not pretending here that life is perfect. Oh no - but a deeper acceptance to what is than ever before.
An awareness of story
An awareness of how other people do effect
Higher levels of intuition - almost to the point of having to stop myself talking too soon!
Dare I say - reading of other peoples images has developed quicker - and a little less language required
My healing hands are doing magic through them more and more
Yet still learning to live life.
Deal with my own "stuff" and being fully responsible and accountable is still a learning process.
There is something simply fabulous about watching a cat stretch. As I watched my two cats relaxing, playing, sleeping and stretching yesterday I noticed how they reserved energy in such a beautiful way.
As I was headed for bed last night I did my 100 Freedom Breaths, having observed the way a cat stretched, I too began to breath into my body and stretch. Each and every limb, torso etc....(no need to carry on). As I went deeper into the 100, the stretches became more profoundly releasing, I could feel the awakening of my body the oxygen going into all the spaces. The breaths also extended out of my body too, an awareness of the space around me.
I find it fascinating the environments that we live within. The obvious external environment which changes as we move through our day and the inner environment within the mind/body. This is what I'm focusing on now. Not content, beliefs, values etc etc.
The Environment! Clarity of Intent and the effect of the environment both external and internal. I'm also aware that we effect the environment around us....lots to be aware of.
This 100 Freedom Breath process is the greatest reminder to keep consciously aware of what is normalised or patterned within my life.
There are so many things that I Just simply don't even take my attention too. The pounding of a base drum playing on a car stereo, the crickets cackling or crackling to each other, the sound of the key board as I tap, the feel of the seat under me, my feet upon the floor, where my breathing is located, and full my breaths are that I'm taking, the focus of my mind or the thought that is going through my head now.
It does feel so lovely to simply participate as the sound for a moment and then break away from the sound and discover the spaces between, same with the feeling, feeling body position and then go in full attention to the part in discussion and merge with it. Or perhaps discover the light and light mindedness.
Life is such a beautiful exploration - the way I feel right now, the less rights and wrongs applied to anyone the freer we are to discover our unfolding potentiality.
Sometimes I simply feel tired, low in energy and want to sleep. Have you ever felt like that?
That was me last night....so when I was aware that I still had my 100 to complete - and a blog!! (self decided of course) I lay upon my bed and started to breath, not from my nose, but expanding my ribs, this is a great way to entice immediate body connection. As you expand your ribs, naturally and it will pull air into your body. Kind of like a bottle that has been squeezed slightly and is then placed into water, it sucks the water into the bottle as the bottle expands. This breathing technique is used to develop a greater lung capacity in developing speech and singing.
As I did this my body, even though tired began to energise. I was in control this time and by the count of 25 I was keen to quicken the process so I could get to bed. I stood up and did the same breathing technique but this time stretching my arms out either side of my body and bringing my arms up and down with the breath, much faster than normal. I did this to the count of 75 staying as fully present as possible. Feeling far more energised I returned to my bed and did the final 25 slowly and consciously.
I can honestly say that this 100 was a purposeful "doing it because I have decided to be disciplined". The sense of accomplishment even though a little thing builds one day upon the other, of "doing what I say I'm going to do." Its a beautiful slow build in trust of self and raises my own awareness to the fact that its the little things in life that we continually practise and attend to that makes the masterful process of conscious living a very real thing.
I could have given myself reasons to not do the 100 yesterday. I could have justified it away. But instead, standing by my commitment I feel a foundational balance of life threading through the layers of illusions that we have lived from an asleep state.
Conscious deliberate living, deliberate conscious awareness, which everyway its said, whichever approach it brings a moment of clarity, where I can build upon a knowledge of how Intent is so magically playing out in life all of the time.
Thank you beautiful fellow human
Thank you for our co-creations in life.
Thank you for being you!
It was a decision made with a beautiful friend of mine who is also doing the 100 Days of 100 Freedom Breaths. She said she was going to do a crystal 100 and I was inspired to also discover the magic of the 100 with crystals.
As is the beautiful case with the 100 Breaths, they always happen as they are to occur and not always according to plan! (Little bit like trying to herd cats!) I do love how there is already an idea, yet the 100 will always take you where you need to go, not necessarily where you think you "want to go".
So, we agreed we would do the 100 at about the same time in the evening around 9pm, both of us working with crystal energies....well what actually occurred was...
9pm rolled around and the kids should be off to bed because its school the next day. Right that's about normal isn't it? Ok didn't happen! My almost 11 year old daughter joked and mucked around with me stringing out her bedtime. My 17 year old son had disappeared for a late night run about 8.45, and I had expected according to patterns that he would come in, shower check out the social media sites and then pop off to bed at 10pm.
In the meantime I started to bring out my crystals and place them outside in the moonlight. Even though the clouds were thick I did regularly see the moon shining brightly through gaps promising to be there when I was ready.
I made myself a drink and went outside to sit on the balcony with my bare feet dangling over the side alongside my crystals and tea. Both cats and my dog gathered around me, then returning from his run my son found me outside and sat along with me chatting and teasing me about what I was doing, you know the crystals and the moon. We laughed and talked, him sharing some of his world, me sharing some of mine, with little interludes of "Mum what have you been smoking, oh thats right you don't need to, your crazy already" I giggled along with him, watching the moon rays, but not seeing the moon, here is the thing, the two cats, dog "Puppy" and my son continued to stay with me. What a delightful gift!
But I wasn't going to start the 100 with him there. For a felt a need to be alone with this 100. This continued until 11pm. Significant because his self imposed bed rules were not attended too! He seemed to enjoy the process we both experienced as the sky began to clear and we talked about space, universe and other intangible things. Of course all his discussions were based on science, and he teased me when it came to "Mum's fantasy" as he called it. What a pure delight!
So, if you are still reading, then this next part is for you because its another level of connectivity that the 100 has called from within me.
My son eventually went inside to shower, so I started a partially participating 100. I could feel the call to go deeper, but I held back knowing at any stage he would come out to say good night. By about 30 I was feeling a deep pull from my feet into the ground and a pull from the moon herself. I resisted my body moving too much and instead went into a trance like state while focused upon the moon. Each breath gently encouraged my feet to feel deeper into the earth and as I pushed down I felt the surge of energy from the earth coming up, this beautiful feeling brought me more and more grounding, yet I was staring directly at the moon!
I finished that 100 and finally my son went to bed! Ah....now its my turn to enjoy more fully. I turned all the lights in the house off, and went back outside. The clouds had all rolled on and the moon was in full visibility! Perfect! Immediately we returned to the place we had been before.
Moving away from individuality and toward connectivity!
This next 100 was very subtle, very slow and very connected. My feet planted deeply within the earth I could feel her rhythms, my body gently arched and my navel lead with this next 100. I could feel the connection with the moon through my belly, as I more fully connected, I became glaringly aware to slow my rhythm down, to feel the subtleties of the movement. I went in and out of heightened awareness of the night sounds to extreme awareness of the gentle pull and tug upon the earth from the moons pull. LOUDLY and with absolute certainty I knew to explore gently, because I could feel so much of our mother nature, her interactions, the movement of the tides, the gentle throb of the inner core of the earth, The Womb of the Goddess.
I learnt at an even deeper level the subtle power of our connectivity.
With true love and admiration to everyone and everything on our planet earth, thank you for our very existence. Thank you for the oneness that we already are, for that was the other experience I had. For when the moon again became covered by a dark cloud, I could still feel her presence, and the in and out breath applied what I know as a fractionation (an up and down, in and out, aware and not aware, connected and sense of individualness). By the way I know some of my words are almost made up, as I am attempting to discover words to articulate such a deep experience. This fractionation left me feeling deeply aware that we are always connected to everything and everyone, its simply my level of awareness at any time that places an illusion of separation.
Well I guess that brings us to the end of my experience of the 100 for the 8th day.
I'm going to call today's experience the Racing 300! There is a simple reason, and that's because I decided on my walk with my daughter and our gorgeous purse-puppy - so originally named "Puppy"! Anyway - it was an interesting decision. We decided to walk around the race-course.
I was walking fast and also attempting to stay very present when my daughter was chatting! haha....Oh dear - My first hundred raced through - and well, I felt to carry on. The second 100 she ran ahead and I was able to focus far more....these 100 seemed to very much be a release, lots of relief as I breathed out....just before about 80 my daughter stood waiting for me to catch up with her.
I must say - I at first felt a little annoyed and then realised this is it - this is life! I'm giggling just thinking about this whole beautiful learning.
One of my forever interests in life is how to get past being the monk on the hill! I have desired to bring that beautiful spiritual presence into what I class as the "Real world", which is and of its self hilarious - because its illusional anyway! Ok, but my point here is that this was IT! Being Present and conscious and participating in life!
This particular 100 was conscious breathing - when in the presence of other people. Moving meditation and communication with another, relational breathing, conscious deliberate now attention in the moment with another being too!
As I grasped the idea my joy started to rise and I loved every moment of completing the second 100. Of course as we carried on - I naturally followed through with the third 100.
Now it became more of a "song or rhythm in my head", the occupier of my space when I wasn't engaged in listening to my daughter!
So the racing 300 was a completely different experience all together. It highlighted as the 100 Freedom Breaths always do a very natural human process. We always have time to connect with others - but are we taking them up?
How can I more fully enjoy every moment of conscious breathing and enjoy other people, causing a natural conscious awareness and presence to become habituated? (Kind of an exciting question really).
People who are very present in themselves and self aware are such a pleasure to be in the same room with. They judge less, say less, act out less and basically move through life less "stuck" in story, "drama" and illusion. These are the people who care deeply but don't buy into their own or other peoples justification, denial or blame . Instead they view life as a connected existence, full of fun, exploration and possibility. They live with their centre of self knowing that its a part of something glorious, creative and blessed.
It excites me that every human being has this potential, this way of being inside of them, simply awaiting to become.
Now this is something to explore!
Go the Racing 300!
Breathe consciously my friend
Joy Your Ride
I simply knew from the moment I decided to do today's 100 breaths that it would be a movement one! I felt the internal movement and flow instantaneously and as I walked into my lounge I felt the power of change surging inside of myself. I kicked my jandels off, and I felt the surge of nature through our heart rimu floor, the cold wood on my warm feet, and yet the life within it. From experience of these types of 100's my feet instantly secured themselves hip length apart and my arms spread wide, my little inner-self kinda shuddered with the thought! "Here we go..."
By the second breath my body was already moving to an internal rhythm, shifting my weight and discovering the balances and imbalances within my body. At first I felt a sharpness with the inhale, a forcefulness, a need to overcome the resistance of letting go. There is a moment here each time when I can choose to jump into the unknown or attempt to control and consciously make sense of what is occurring. This momentary decision played on a couple of breaths, but my intent and body had obviously already had a discussion and had already decided! It was already exploring and following the energy shifts and strands in my energetic space, my mind and ego may have had some idea to remain in control, but the energy and intention of the 100 was coming full force both from within and outside. Then there was that moment, blessed suspended moment when I surrendered into the process itself, trusting at exquisitely deep levels as I explore and delve into the known and unknown regions of our inner being.
The dynamic entry is often - as was this one, a full force ride through the atmosphere of energetic uncertainty, up-ending and unnerving to the delicate balance of the sane mind. My hands discovered the energy lines and threads of where to follow and they worked within the energy dislodging with rapid friction and movement feeling the unseen, and entering into the realm of vibration, this was not so gentle on my body as it senses the vibrational flow and moves in harmony and response to this interruptive energy that forcefully awakens sleeping stuck-ness and dry deadened un-oxygenated parts within me, for as these are dislodged the space around them begins to awaken the creative equal to the energy my intent is calling.
As the two energies circulate and meet each other my body vibrates at increasing speeds, the contrast to any dulled matter (I call them old patterns) that has hardened is sought out and the new energy seeks to engage it to reawaken to a new level. As breathing is my only conscious way of staying present I face the inner aspects of myself with full attention. Those previously unowned and rejected aspects of me are drowned with my full presence and attention. This seems to awaken them and their energy shifts and mingles with the pure energy that flows through the stimulated energy vortex that my hands are applying friction too. A sweep of energy surges into my body filling me with a new sense of myself I feel the internal disruption completely. A good descriptions is like pouring tonnes of fresh water into a bucket that is full of muddy density. As the pure fresh energy floods my system the moments of confusion continue and all I have to hold onto is the count and breathe at this moment completely taken by the surge of the flow. In truth the best way to label this feeling is orgasmic, on every level.
This continues and then subsides slightly - a calm and gentle rhythm lovely and quite....for a moment.
Somehow - I do not know what leads, my hands and arms begin to work with a new vibration and the rhythm changes this time spinning the vortex in a different way interfering with how it was moving previously, this new direction places me into a new choice - Will I? Can I? Am I willing to trust the process to the next level?
Another deep breath, this one again forced as I make my choice, I feel the sharp exhale, the choice is made and a loud and intrusive burning clouds my head area, the force pushing in upon my entire being an intense vibration that seeks to squeeze me out of current knowing. As this continues I draw in a very conscious breath to accept the intense pressure that is coming from every side - it feels as though my head will explode or even perhaps implode, then just as I'm overwhelmed, before me, in my inner eye I see a deep dark passage - that seems to extend into the depths of the universe (quite honestly I'm both elated and hellishly nervous at the same time). If feel as though I'm being sucked into this vortex my intention is seeking something, something that is there within the nothingness of space.
How is it that my hands know what to do? How is it that my breathing rapidly shifts and begins sucking from the vortex? My sane mind seems to be peaked in attention. Every attention particle within me is focused upon this place - this unknown edge of creation. My whole being, mind, body, emotion, led by my out of conscious clear intention begins to draw into itself whatever it is that is down that vortex. A part of my sanity is incredibly challenged and even though I swing in and out of conscious knowing perhaps led by my breath, there is an aspect of me that is scared, probably challenged would be the correct word, challenged by not knowing what it is, having to continue trusting the process, surrendering to something far greater than me, placing complete faith in evolution and expansion no matter how bewildering it is for the ego and controlling patterned mind.
The intensity of the pull of this is hard on my body. I feel my feet gripping to the floor, my pelvis and hips are moving and drawing too, my hands are pulling at invisible energy strands, and to be really honest for a moment as I observed myself from a space of ego consciousness I felt I could be from the legend of Maui.
I'm being honest when I say that I still have no idea what I was pulling but every aspect of me; my intention, attention, purpose, focus and will was engaged one hundred percent. I fell into the flow again and this continued my hands drawing with fascinating strength and purpose every inch of my body participating. My muscles where taut I could feel the pressure from the other end, the inner space of the unknown being pulled at, being called in - what was on the other end I did now know - but I knew it was important.
Then the energy changed directly and easily it was brought to the surface. I felt the thrill as the edges of the energy touch my energy and I experienced a flood of overwhelm and excitement as I knew it was coming into my space - or I into its space. My energy and body began to welcome its presence - this unknown, this bewildering newness, the excitement of something drawn from the depths of the creative evolving universe.
My count was still continuing - remember this is what keeps me in place. I'm at 97 and only just beginning to feel the rapture of experience, only just beginning to explore this new energy as my count continues a joy that is extra-ordinary to experience overwhelms me. My body again becomes organismic shuddering with pure delight, energetic and emotional pleasure. 100, and I'm so not finished!
No more count required, I bask in the continued vibration of energy through my body, my body continues to integrate this vast newness. A new creative expression of self drawn from the collective universe its self. I'm in joy of our beings, I'm in joy and appreciative even now as I write - knowing there were others pulling this new evolution into our world with me. I'm in true awe of trusting the process of life and creation its very vibrant energy that is ever ready to express in truly new ways.
Eventually I bring the energy into my space and awareness and now I will explore what this new possibility is, what this will bring into the regions of exploration and creation. I break from the continuing 100 as I feel the settling within and around me and my physical needs call, for water and food.
Well - so there we go for the first time - I share as much of an experience as I can. Every 100 is vastly different when it gets to this level - there are some patterns that occur with regard to my body awakening and integrating - but the energy and exploration each time is its own expression. I feel very honoured to have trusted myself enough a year ago when this process started to occur. I still feel very honoured to again reach into the inner realms of the unknown and delve into the merging exquisite expanse of who we really are. I feel very honoured if you have read this blog for your time and attention.
I do not know where this is all leading - all I know is that I have started another journey, this time with the courage to track it, this time with the need to capture it, this time with an urgency that is as significant as the last, but this time with such a compelling desire to evolve that I shudder in excitement as I even bring the intent into my awareness.
Thank you fellow breather, fellow co-creator,
Breathing with you
Joy Your Ride
Even though I was tired and slow today, I still held Clarity of Intent to experience the 100. I ran a bath and soaked within the warmth of it. As I did I started to consciously breath. Each breath circulating through my body. My lazy mind darted in an out of the familiar and I lost conscious count at about 15 for a number of breaths. When I realised I re-focused and purposefully attended to breathing and feeling the power of presence...
It's so easy in life to go into robotic mode. To be completely unaware as we move through our day, doing tasks and responding to life. It's so easy to let the mind simply wander in and out of thoughts and getting taken through the myriad of webs of the mind. I noticed that this meandering is often with content that has already occurred and plays over like an ad running and re-running on the TV, one thought leading to another and another, I'm sure it has purpose? Well actually I'm not sure, I feel when I'm in a lazy and unaware state that it is simply noise, mind noise which is familiar and easy.
I have a feeling though, that this mind noise distracts from our incredible creative authenticity. When I'm aware and conscious of myself, my mind, my body, my emotions through observing, paying attention and aware of my intentions, its a completely different experience all together, there is an excitement, a willingness and an anticipation within me. This purposeful attentiveness seems to invoke creativity and new thoughts, it plays with purpose and offers new unexplored content.
I'm the first to admit that my mind muscles are what I would call lazy. They keep running through similar patterns, going over easy already walked and screened experiences, documentaries within my mind that I'm updating and reinforcing. Why I ponder....
In this moment now I just realised why that occurs (well for me) as the images build I assign emotion (connection) to them, now this I admit has been an unconscious process even though done with expertise by my powerful mind. However in this moment I realise the purpose of it.
The emotions feed the energy of the thought, and this then builds the thought into something more substantial. As each thought runs through - supposedly carelessly, I then acquire the necessary values and beliefs that will build the energy of the thought. The constant re-run from various angles begins to build a collective of experience. Goodness I'm in awe right now! Thats it - what incredible beings we are. This thought energy then grows and as it is re-run again, it will then be assigned to other experiences - either real or imagined to build a complete system of knowledge within myself of this type of experience.
Let me give an example: Lets say it its an argument, (by the way - had or not had yet). The playing through of this "argument" will begin to attract emotions that back up an experience - forward come some options (normally old borrowed beliefs I would imagine) that feed into the thought, these emotions then draw attention to the situation and values and beliefs show up to be chosen to support the current perspective. Now I know that at the time I'm not aware of this process within me - I'm simply Doing what I do, CREATE!
I'm seriously very excited right now - just having been through this thought. Ok back to the "argument" at hand. (because that's what the mind would do), now its had time to collect an entire library of resource that will continue to feed that "argument situation" the playing over and fine tuning of tone of voice and facial expressions of the person, feeds into the thought energy and draws even more emotion and a complete string of connection, beliefs and values - this "hardens" the experience to put into play a reaction. We will then either act out this "argument creation" or store it for a later date!
Fascinating! Simply glorious. Love it.
So I'm wondering - keeping in mind the purpose of these 100 Days of 100 Breaths and the purpose to increase and begin to understand Clarity of Intent what else I can learn as each breath allows space to evolve!
PS posted the day after (oops time flew by yesterday)
I'm vastly interested right now in the environment within our bodies and outside of ourselves.
Today my 100 breaths lead me to notice the environment of my inner being as I breathe. Each breath as it circulated gently pulled from my belly instead of from my nose, no force, simply inhaling and exhaling allowed me to be aware of myself, and yet I couldn't truly discover where I started and finished, for as these breaths continued to circulate, it was as though even though I was aware of me - the space, was completely un-solid! Yet I have a body right! Where did it disappear within the space of the breath? Even though it was momentarily.
You have a body right? You do - I see yours and other all of the time - your body, my body, your thoughts and my thoughts interacting as we communicate, your emotions expressed through how you are being, my emotions expressed through how I'm being, yet as each breath circulated there were moments where those thoughts, emotions and body were invisible, and only space occurred. Even now as I'm writing I can re-experience this moment over and over again, yet my hands continue to type and words continue to form onto the screen in front of me. Gosh we are multiplicity in action.
So questions for direction comes to mind....for what purpose have we individualised? For what purpose have I seen myself as such a separate individual? For what purpose have I rolled around in my own dramas? For what purpose have I witnessed and experienced such inconsequential things that I made to be so dramatic or allowed to effect me so strongly? For what purpose has this been unfolding?
A lovely moment occurred to me just now, is it really air that I'm breathing? I remember the first Matrix movie where the question is raised. When Morphious asked Neo "Do you think that's air your breathing?" Oh I know your thinking that's a movie. So is our lives they are clusters of visual, auditory and emotive senses all placed together in one place for an experience to be had.
What if the breath we breathe is the oneness?
What if the "air" as a label is the oneness the space of potentiality the connectedness occurring continuously always in one moment. Oh of course it is!....perhaps.
The air and energies within which we move, and play are all full of information from across our planet, potential experiences, potent moments to become...
For what are we/I becoming? Where is our future leading to? What are we creating within our singular and collective space? Is this by accident, or are we becoming conscious enough to trust our inner authenticity, our inner knowingness?
Much to ponder....many breaths to take
So thats my musings from today's 100 Breaths.
Joy Your Ride!
Its the 1st of February 2012. Significant for me because a year ago on the 3rd of February 2011, I discovered upon a process that I now call 100 Freedom Breaths. I had fun last year playing with the conscious deliberate dynamics of breathing and experienced tremendous personal growth and expansion. I applied myself for 100 days and then another 100 days, but slowly let go of the process as I entered my third 100 days.
I have continually since then been very aware of the power of breath and have immensely enjoyed the release and relief and re-connectivity to myself of what I had disciplined myself to do. Over the last number of months I have been feeling a "need" a "calling" to commit again, however this time I was a little hesitant. For the very purpose that I am aware big changes will follow. For this time I'm entering with my eyes wide open, a new level of awareness about the process and the consequences and a very, Jez I'm going to use the word "reverent" approach. For I know deeply inside myself that this time - THERES MORE!
I kinda yelled then. Well....the truth is that is what has stopped me. That is why until today I wasn't ready to commit to such a purposeful journey. That's why until today I had held off thinking....maybe next week, or Monday, and Monday never came. Well it did come and it went and it came and it went, Oh I think you get the picture. Another hesitation I had was how to this time truly capture my learnings, explorations and experiences. But a wise woman - who actually tipped me over the edge today with my 100% commitment Stacey Austin, reminded me...just go with the flow, trust yourself. And this brought back immense knowingness of the perfection of that, as that was exactly how I came across the 100 Freedom Breaths in the beginning, I trusted myself and went with the flow. So here I am on the 1st of February 2012 about to delve into a beautiful journey into the unknown of myself and to share it on this blog as I go, this time I'm less concerned about what other people think, because even though the internal journey maybe private there may be one person, just one who benefits from this blog, and that one person, who may even by you, will impact the world tremendously through joining me in a sacred personal journey of becoming more conscious, aware, lighter, fresher, aligned, connected, loving and FREE.
Last year my purpose was to release stuck energy within myself and to allow a flow to circulate through me. This time in 2012, I'm excited, because this time my purpose of this commitment is to discover Clarity of Intention. Yes that's it, I'm almost certain that stuck energies will move simply because. I'm almost certain I will meet my internal dragons, demons, fears, hidden agendas, old stuck patterns and barriers, and I know with absolute certainty from previous experience that the breath is the most powerful bridge as it will bring my own presence into those experiences and the power of presence will simply transform them into a lighter and brighter and fresher way of being.
I'm also almost certain that I will discover something else I have been playing with in a new way. I have been exploring space, silence and the space within space, the potentiality factor, the pure potent energy of possibility, I'm both eager and in awe (kinda nervous) of where this will end up. For with purpose and intent to evolve and transform myself from being connected to telling stories about my life, and making sense of things through justifying and getting caught up in useless energy interactions, I now sit ready to jump into a new way of being, taken along by the highest intent I can hold and I have formulated this into a question:
What is Clarity of Intention?
This leads me to another question which is; What will I discover when I truly accept, allow, what is - for what it is and allow my true essence to flow, the authentic self, the connected being, the creative god or goddess factor to have its true place?
Ok lightening up a bit - if you are still reading, you may like to know some other benefits, more physical and more materialistic.
I know that the breathing cleanses from the inside - so I will drink lots of water - Its like a detox! This will mean my skin will clear, my eyes will clear and dance again, my body will feel lighter and more flexible, there will be a freshness in my presence and attention when I am doing things, I will be more self aware and energy aware (of others and environments), my intuition will become deeply heightened, there will be more and more conscious moments in every day where I simply feel free, unencumbered, at peace, and fertile to create.
If that's not already enough I know the process will also bring about multiple energy shifts, where I will actually experience (consciously) transformation within my body, my emotions, my mind and my environment.
Jez! I'm exciting myself...hehe, so with all that said, I humbly acknowledge that its a journey, and I do not know how it will unfold, it is simply one breath at a time, trusting the process and trusting myself, there is no right or wrong way to do it. there is no right or wrong way to breath, for variety entices variety.
Only
the commitment to do it.
the discipline to rigorously stay present
the absolute to complete each breath and each 100 in one day, over 100 days
the pure intent to allow the Clarity of Intention to unfold within me as a burning knowing, and then where to from there?
Another day dawns and we breath together whether consciously or unconsciously, I can completely assume you are breathing right now as you read this. I AM!
And now consciously! I have discovered the fun in using all types of breathing techniques for this 100 breaths. I mean why live one way? When there are all the possible ways of being, and breathing and expanding, I figure...lets give them a try.
So My 100 today I have already broken into 10 segments of 10. So thats very very very purposeful 10 breaths in a row. I can keep 3 very conscious! Working on the rest!...(hehe)
Above are Erkhartolle's video and my quick notes below
One conscious breath - 20 times a day
2 conscious breaths
Bathroom
Elevator
Breath - consciously
Enjoy.....Breathe
What about being comfortable being and breathe
Practice and be present at every step of the breath.
No thought.
Just breathing.....nothing else
100 Freedom Breaths
100 Days
100 Ways
Or / and conscious breaths
Entering a dimension of presence your own presence.
Empower yourself through no longer dis-empowering yourself.
Our greatest value is to stand as an example.
Breathe.
Day 68 of my 2nd 100 Days 100 Breaths in 100 Ways
Yes its my second 100 days 100 breaths. And the power of it is ever present...until it was not. And that was just recently when for about 10 days I stopped putting aside time for myself of what really matters. You know how when you get busy the things that are good for you in life like, exercise, fresh air and relaxation can fall away?....well I let the 100 conscious breaths fall away. And I'm in this moment right now delighted! Because I have experienced the contrast again....and it was too heavy, and dis-orientating and flat and boring and dull and....I'm consciously breathing again!
For those 10 days my 100 breaths a day "vanished"!....Oh I was still breathing...unconsciously...and sometimes actually often "telling myself off" for not breathing.
And that was perfect, because last night I stopped and re-integrated what matters to me. Purposeful, deliberate, conscious breaths. 100 Freedom Breaths and I'm feeling uplifted, ready to go, lighter and far more full of evergy.
I seek to deliberately seek the conscious aware breath and how that raises my body to feel fabulous. Thanks it.
When I feel empowered I can allow others to be themselves and lead out through fully deliberately being free to allow newness.
I feel my power through living and loving and allowing what is to flow through me.
Thank you for being fabulous.
I hope that what I have mentioned in some way has inspired you to empower yourself and participate in the 100 dayys 100 breath process.
Breath deep!
Be Glorious
PS Thank you for being you, however you are showing up today, because that's perfect, if it feels low, try smiling and breathing deep, if it feels high and great, grin, laugh and share the joy!
